About my dreams that I have decided to follow.
The problem was...or how to put it....until recently I was aiming for what the community expects of me, among with some of my close family members. But hell no, no more! The pressure of the community, meaning that, yes, after high school you should apply for a programme in a respected university to be trained as the trend is - when I was applying in 2005, it was the business management, few years before that, there was a huge boom of IT and now they are trying to get students to do more scientific programmes. I'm not saying that business administration and management programmes are stupid, not at all, they are the basis for a country as small as Estonia to ensure it's competitiveness in the world of trading and being a part of the EU and it's rules. Not forgetting the overall global and political-economic situation - it has a crucial value and I could even point out that due to the numerous graduates of programmes like that, Estonia has gained more than lost. Anyhow, this is the macro-level of the topic - when it comes to your personal decisions, community plays a role that you might not even notice. Come on, don't you just remember that "you have to work really hard on your studies, because of the finals. After that you can get in to any uni you want" in the high school. Those studies taking expensive amount of your time and not leaving you any to actually figure out what it is that YOU actually want to do with your life.
So, after finishing your studies in the programme, what is most likely the most popular at the moment. Then, you are facing another issue - getting a job, even if you do not even like the field, they expect you to start working right away. Getting monthly income, living your quiet little life, getting a huge loan for a newly built apartment in suburbs and babies. You need to have children. Because it is normal. At the age of 25 you should be finished your studies, you should be having a relationship at least, better is to be married and you should at least be already planning the growth of your family. And then, walk with the baby stroller and spend your nights and days talking about diapers. Not saying that it is not good or anything against it, but I'm just not there yet. Before walking down that road there are few career-based things I need to get over with.
To be honest, I'm not even sure what that thing is exactly, but I am 110% sure that this routine, expected by the community, this is not for me, not just now. I need to travel the world, find my passion, make shitloads of money, turn myself into well educated professional in something and make a difference. Have fun and take all there is to take out of this world. I need to aim higher than it is expected, think for myself and not be so influential by whoever and what ever---but that is covered by the thinking for myself too, right.
Anyhow, the plan is to be and have those things by the time I die (hope I will have a long happy life and won't die before 80 years because of my smoking and drinking and ... unhealthy lifestyle), so in general, the outcome should be living up to those standards, hopefully even better... but we'll see:
To be honest, I'm not even sure what that thing is exactly, but I am 110% sure that this routine, expected by the community, this is not for me, not just now. I need to travel the world, find my passion, make shitloads of money, turn myself into well educated professional in something and make a difference. Have fun and take all there is to take out of this world. I need to aim higher than it is expected, think for myself and not be so influential by whoever and what ever---but that is covered by the thinking for myself too, right.
Anyhow, the plan is to be and have those things by the time I die (hope I will have a long happy life and won't die before 80 years because of my smoking and drinking and ... unhealthy lifestyle), so in general, the outcome should be living up to those standards, hopefully even better... but we'll see:
*not having to be worried how much you actually spend in a groacieries store and not having to look at the prices...no where, not even at the LV and Chanel. If I feel like treating myself, I go for it!
*can afford to go to PLACES, travelling the world is a natural part of my everyday!
*nice home with a awesome kitchen and huge balcony and few extra bedrooms for my awesome friends, biiiiiiig dressing room and movie watching area.
*retirement will be spent in a cute beach house with a blue-blue sea view and swing-bed on the terrace, huge balcony (bigger than my penthouse's apartment has) and tiny garden where the spices are grown.
*happiness and health - as a part of all
*Maslow's highest level! The feeling of accomplishment & changing the world. A job that pays the rent is not simply enough.
So, and the plan to get what I dream of is to:
a) win the lottery (but since there is nothing to achieve there it is combined with the following)
b) educating yourself to be very highly valued professional in international level of either politics, economics or finance...or something in between (I'm working on that yet...it will come along soon enough), so that well payed jobs are lining up in front of you and you can make your pick and headhunters are hunting you and your professional skills and background would be nothing less than impressive.
c) work hard, keep yourself motivated and eyes on the goal. Not forgetting to have fun the same time.
d) networking - keeping your friends close, enemies closer; gathering new contacts and making them matter.
e) finding the passion and combining it with shit I just need to get over with.
Yes. I know, money is not everything, you can not buy happiness or health, but as they say - it is much nicer to be unhappy and cry in a Mercedes convertible than in Opel form year 1996. True story. + I'm guessing, that my need for that kind of financial security is caused by where I am from and how I was raised. I feel that it is important not to be having to worry about weather you can send your kid to a schools filed trip or not...etc. I realize that when I die, I probably wont be thinking about the awesome car I had, but rather the memories with the family and friends, about the good things and changes made. That's why it is important to be there for your family and friends, constantly planning to do fun stuff with them and keeping up the quality of good time. :)
So, how ever good or bad that may sound to you, my dear reader. Dreams are to be followed, I can not afford to not do that. The worst thing that could happen is that some of it will not come true, but it is fine. I'm sure some of my plans will change along the way - improvement of the plan, that's what I call it, because I'm hoping to specify it and create more strategical approach.
Other than that, I have decided to give it a shot and when then, when not now! Totally logical and normal, I think.
Bisous to ya all! :)
e) finding the passion and combining it with shit I just need to get over with.
Yes. I know, money is not everything, you can not buy happiness or health, but as they say - it is much nicer to be unhappy and cry in a Mercedes convertible than in Opel form year 1996. True story. + I'm guessing, that my need for that kind of financial security is caused by where I am from and how I was raised. I feel that it is important not to be having to worry about weather you can send your kid to a schools filed trip or not...etc. I realize that when I die, I probably wont be thinking about the awesome car I had, but rather the memories with the family and friends, about the good things and changes made. That's why it is important to be there for your family and friends, constantly planning to do fun stuff with them and keeping up the quality of good time. :)
So, how ever good or bad that may sound to you, my dear reader. Dreams are to be followed, I can not afford to not do that. The worst thing that could happen is that some of it will not come true, but it is fine. I'm sure some of my plans will change along the way - improvement of the plan, that's what I call it, because I'm hoping to specify it and create more strategical approach.
Other than that, I have decided to give it a shot and when then, when not now! Totally logical and normal, I think.
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